I'm discovering a lot of things about being a grown up, which I'm sure were taught to me at a young age, it just took now for them to finally sink in.
We're at this crucial point in our lives where we're putting a lot of serious energy into savings, finances, education and the future. We're looking to buy property, go back to school, and further our careers.
I felt I took a step back -- not backwards, but more like a pause, career-wise. I had to re-assess a few things that I was doing. I started thinking about how I was going about my life and career when I lived in Chicago, LA, and Atlanta, and how it compared to how things are going now.
In Chicago, I was all about theatre, my first love. The stage filled my soul like nothing else.
Los Angeles taught me two things: 1. The energy that you put out is exactly what you get back. And 2., it's all about who you know. The time I spent there was wonderful and peaceful. I was able to spot the phony people from a mile away, and was blessed enough to not have to deal with or encounter them. And all the work I booked was because of someone I knew. They were small roles, but it didn't feel right to me. I didn't feel like I was actually accomplishing anything. I missed the journey and the grind. It's like when you work hard for something, and you see it come to fruition, you appreciate it more.
The on-camera work I booked when I lived in Atlanta, spoiled me. I booked my first commercials there, and booked my first day player role on a FOX drama, as well as a couple of industrials and shorts. If I didn't dislike the city so much, I would have stayed a little longer. I was used to fast-paced big cities, and it was just too slow for me.
Fast forward to the New York City present. It feels like something within me has to make a choice: stage or screen. It's all acting, right? They should be one in the same. But that's not true. Different styles and techniques all together. Gone are the days of booking straight from a pic and resume. People need concrete proof that you can actually perform. And I think it's great! Your package has to be almost as extensive as an architect or designer. It takes a lot of time and energy, and everything has to be on point. Presenting yourself to an agent, manager, casting director, and/or producer is like going in front of the head honcho at a Fortune 500 company and saying, "Pick Me! I'm the BEST!", while remaining humble, fun-loving, personable and professional but not stiff. I sometimes take temp gigs for a few days so I can let my brain relax for a few hours and recharge, so I can be fully energized for the grind. Everybody needs a mental vacation every once in awhile.
My brain and spirit seem to be on auto-pilot when it comes to Box Of Chocolates. I'm so psyched that everyone is so committed to the journey and process. Comedy is the blood that pumps through my veins. I love playing. I love being physical. I love making others laugh. When I can be silly at my job, I feel ten feet tall. I've decided to take classes at UCB and The P.I.T. to improve my improv and sketch comedy writing skills. I don't know where this journey with Box Of Chocolates is gonna take me, but wherever it is, it makes me feel good.
I'm happy and grateful for the life I have. And I'm blessed and thankful for those who guided me along the way.
This year's goals: AEA card, 3-4 co-star roles, and 2-3 guest star roles.
E.G.O.T., I'm on my way!
